When I leave work at 5, I often feel guilty because my boss is still working. Some subscribe to the motto “never leave before the boss does.” If I don’t have any work to do, though, why should I stay? I used to ask my boss if she needed anything from me before I left, but then I realized if she had tasks for me, she should have assigned them four or five hours ago, not at the end of the “standard” work day.
Asking for work has not yielded much. I often wonder why I was hired. Some bosses simply like having an available body should any need arise. As I sit on the losing end of that deal, I am bored to tears and wondering why I pursued higher education. A soccer mom with no career aspirations could sit here and do what I do (no offense to soccer moms). I need to feel needed at work.
I’m typing this blog entry as my boss sits five feet away from me. Does she wonder what I’m doing? I suppose she’s so engrossed in her high-level HR matters that she doesn’t have time to question my activity. She’s never rejected a time card or mandated my hours. She trusts me to complete the few projects I’m given. Perhaps I should enjoy the freedom of this un-micromanaged (or should that read “macromanaged”?) role.
Still, I feel guilty at the end of the day when I charge seven hours (I can’t make it to eight because I’m so bored) for doing basically nothing. My mom would say, “That’s not your problem.” I could retort by saying it is, at least partially, my problem for not getting clearer definitions of what’s expected of me. At any rate, I need to abandon this guilt and find a role that is worth my time. Then again, that wouldn’t allow me much time to bore you all with these blog entries, would it? 🙂